How do you say you are so thankful for something while at the same time being so tired of that same thing? I consider it such a grace given by God to be able to pump and feed Dominic exclusively breastmilk from birth, especially seeing as he takes zero by mouth. I know this is such a gift... But can I just say how tired I am of it? It's like I praise God with one side of my mouth while the other side complains. Thank you, but I am so tired of pumping. Thank you, but it never stops hurting. Thank you because his little brain needs it, but I just want myself back. Thank you, wish I could make a little more. I am thankful for God's mercy... surely he pardons his unthankful daughter, right?
And on the topic I am obsessed with food. Not for me, but for him. I have just decided that until I can find a dietician that will be more helpful to me, I will learn everything there is to know about making my own homemade food that goes through his g-button. I have been a Goggle-crazy momma. I have e-mailed a dietician in Arizona asking if she would do a phone consultation. We have turned in our medical discount form for our Vitamix. I have found all I can on low sucrose veggies. I am determined that he will eat real food.
I don't really know how to end this because you see our nurse didn't come last night so I'm running on about 1 hour total of sleep. Our day nurse just arrived so off to bed for me for a bit.
In Jesus and Mary,